yaww hai ! haha. ok for this entry, aku akan share kan about my esaimen PDJ untuk subject counselling. untuk esaimen ni alhamdulillah aku dapat... satu.. emm dua.. emm.. hehe lapan per sepuluh. :D #kachengg! sebelum tu, maafkan aku sebab aku tau. there is a lot of grammatical error yang terdapat dalam esaimen aku ni. almaklumlah wuhu.. aku ni muet pon repeat 2 kali. kali kedua tu pon baru cecah band 3 hahahaa..! ayat sedeh je blah laa! okay. i just want to share my experience about counselling in my life so enjoy your reading :)
Personal Development
Journal.
First time I walked
into Faculty of Education, which placed at Seksyen 17 Shah Alam, I was
wondering what the subjects later would be my “burden” in this degree stage.
This is because, we as part 1 students of Bachelor of Education (Hons) were not
be exposed clearly about our course’s subjects and classes during orientation.
We do know nothing. Even though when we are look at the timetable shown on the notice-board,
my friends and I didn’t know what the subjects are shown with the short cut
word.
MAT 421. “Maybe it is
math’s class.” EDU 404. “EDU? What was that?” EDU 430. “Huh? EDU again? What is
the different with this previously EDU class?” My eyes look at the lecturer’s
name, Siti Hawa Othman. Hmmm... her name just like a woman with full of
kindness. Hopefully, amin... And I hope too that she is sporting and not
‘violent in temper’ person. Amin. We are starting from zero, until we attend to
the classes as shown as the timetable given. Then slowly, we understand the
flow and the system of the university.
The first EDU 430
class that have I attended was on Wednesday 10.20 am, placed at Cendana 1.
Datin Siti Hawa came into the class about 10-15 minutes later. As she came into
the class, automatically my mouth was shut. Just like a situation where a
discipline teacher coming into your class and the class were automatically in a
silent mode. Syyhhh.... Just the sound of aircond was heard. My first
expression towards her, she looks like a straight person and ... is it she is a
Chinese? Hmmm, nope I don’t think so because her name showing that she is a
Malays woman. Yeah, maybe Chinese look. Whatever, but I like her hair and her
style. Look simple and nice.
When she starts to
have a conversation, I was so impress. Wow, what good English that she has. I
understand nicely for every single sentence that she said but if she asks us, I
don’t know how to reply it. Yeah, maybe my English was not so good as her so I
don’t have any confident to reply her back in English. So sometimes I refer to
silent and smiling. Haha. When Datin Siti Hawa told us her experiences as a counsellor,
I was again, impress. There are a lot of experiences that she have and share to
us! We are lucky to hear that from someone who are well experienced. Then I
realize that in EDU 430 class, we will learn about counselling, guidance,
giving advices, how to act like a good teacher, don’t bias to your students,
think rationally to conduct the situation not emotionally and else. We’ll learn
every single thing about psychology.
For me, the word of
psychology is so interesting. I’m really excited knowing that I’ll learn about
psychology. Since I’m 17, I always try to survey and search on internet how to
psycho people around us, how to develop our psycho’s skill and else. It was
really interesting!
In EDU 430 class, I
have heard that Datin Siti Hawa told us everything about her experiences when
she was a counsellor in a primary school. She told us her story, and my mind
was automatically reviews back, flash back, into my school memory. I tried to
compare up her story, is it same as mine when I was a student. Some stories
were same but some were not. I was attracted with her statement which are some
teachers do bias toward their students and always chatter about the class who
getting lower mark compare to the highest one. Yes, I really agree about that
statement!
Some teachers do
bias. When I’m 17, there is a graduation event which I have to attend to. My
entire class members (42 students including me) were compulsory to attend that
event. We don’t know why but we just think that, “Ok guys, we are the first
batch who got this graduation event. So let’s enjoy it! Don’t think that it is
a burden on this weekend.” Yeah, as a SPM’s student we didn’t like to attend or
wasting off our gold weekend times with this such event. But some of my friends
think it as a positive way.
But there are
something shocking us. Although we are the first class (Bio-science student) in
that school, we have a lot of friends which come from Account students, Art
students and else. Even my cousin is an account student too in that school. We
have heard that only student in 5 Cemerlang (Account) who got success in their trial exam can join
this event while the rest can’t join it because the teacher said that the
graduation event already have enough student to attend to. Not only 5 Cemerlang
but also 5 Ehsan and 5 Dedikasi were received that instruction. What the pity
of them! Even my class was the first class, I know there are some of my class
members were got worse in his trial exam but teacher force us to join it.
Compulsory! No choice. But why they are
so selective to other classes? “This event just belongs to 5 Amanah and 5
Bestari. Not us. So we no need to attend.” Okay.. Some fishy had happen here.
We feel so sorry to them.
In a view of
counselling, I start to attend the counselling room when I was 13. This is because
I had a sexual abuse from my friend so I make decision to report it. Then I
continue my “visiting” to counselling room just until form 3 because my
counselling teacher got to move to other school. Although she got to move to
other school, I still come and visit her, since her house is nearby to mine.
As a teacher-to-be, I
think that it is necessary for us to learn counselling subject. There are wide
in use of counselling. As a teacher, we are just not teaching the children or
teenagers about academic but also motivate and give some passion to them about
their life. We know that there are a lot of conflicts occur in teenage years
including social illness, family problems and also friend matter. So as an
educator and moderator of the teenagers, we should take part on how to reduce
their conflict and help them to solve their problem by their own decision.
It’s not just
counselling teacher can give advice or any sort of motivation to the students,
other teachers also can take the role. That is why we have to learn the
counselling, perhaps it would help us to encourage or give some advice to our
students later. Each teacher must have that counselling skill even though she
or he is not a counselling teacher. This because, in counselling we not just
give motivation or advices, but also psycho our client, that came from students
and also their parents. What I mean by psycho here is how do we interact with
them with psychology method. This psychology method was also in one of
counselling subtopic.
I’ll make an example
here from my experience when I was 15. My History teacher builds up two
conditions. First, all students must bring along their History text book during
History subject and second, she will select someone (the “lucky” one) that her
like to explain in front of others class member for the whole chapter that have
she explained before. Those who forget to bring the text book or fail to
explain the complete story about selected chapter, she or he will lead the
other class member to receive a punishment.
She will not give a
physical punishment, but a mental punishment. We have ever taste how “sweet”
sat below our own table for 30 minutes! Wow.. Imagine that a student with size
double XL have to stay below her table for 30 minutes, superb. Not just that,
we also have receive a punishment which have to stand straight along the
class’s corridor during our senior break time. What a shame when our crush see
us stand straight outside the class while our teacher just sitting on the
chair. Some of our friends (next class) just laughing at us.
Since that day, all
of us.. I repeat ALL of us, always check and remind each other to bring the
history text book along and conquer the topic given. If one forgot to bring
their own book, all of us will find another solution together, fast, which is
borrow other History book from
other class. What is important? Cooperation. There is first time I saw my
classmates (the boys) which have never held the book with their hands before,
hold the book and bring it along during recess time. Haha. Its so funny and
awkward when saw school thugs read book during anyone else have a breakfast
with Nasi Lemak.
It is important to
use psychology in education method. There are a lot of benefits if we look
deeply for the outcomes. Base on my story, I was salute for my History teacher
which use psychology that leads us to success. I got A for my History in PMR
even though I just got D before for my final exam Form 2. My classmates entire
also get high mark compared to their previous exam. I said thanks to my History
teacher which encourage and enhance my friends and I to love History.
Later, when I am a
teacher, I would like to use certainly of my previous teacher’s method to
encourage my students to study with enjoyable. Love on what they do and miss on
what they practice. I’m always wish that I will be the best teacher to my
beloved student .... soon. Which on future, I will always in their heart, as my
teachers in my heart.
